Breastfeeding after Reduction
My original intention was to revamp old breastfeeding blogs after reviewing them.
I can’t do that. I’m honoring who I was when I wrote the original blogs, and I need to write another one honoring the growth and wisdom I have gleaned since those experiences.
The Sister Wound
I was “reported” by a “sister”.
Someone who sat in circle with me, someone who witnessed my deepest intimate shares.
I was “reported” by a “sister” to a “sister”.
WE MOVED OUT OF THE 5TH WHEEL
2+ Weeks with no BM
It wasn’t until I was closer to 18 that I noticed that my bowel movements had shifted from “irregular” to at my absolute worst going 14+ days without a bowel movement. At that point, I told my mom that I needed to go to the doctor to have this tended to because this pattern had continued for months at this point.
Happy 3rd Un-Birthday, Olive
I have no doubt that you would have been mischievous and others would have to keep up with you. Your brief life is an example of that… we’ll catch up to you one day.
Winds in the East…
“Winds in the east, mist coming in, like somethin' is brewin' and bout to begin.”
Happy Birthday Olive
Evie has been talking about you more lately and still insists you were her little sister and I think she’s right.
THIRTY
I feel like I have been racing towards this age forever.
Our Birth Story- Atlas Wade
I started instinctually swirling my hips. I told my midwife that I was feeling the urge to bear down and asked if I was OK to go ahead. She said if your body is telling you to then go ahead.
What’s in a Name: Atlas Wade
I knew at 6 weeks pregnant that I was pregnant with a boy. Maybe it was the masculine energy I felt from him, or the fact that none of the go-to names we had been sitting on for 5+ years felt right.
What’s in a Name: Evangeline Cherie
Naming a child is a HUGE responsibility that we took very seriously when it came to all our babies.
To my husband, and father of our children, Zach
I am unable to express how much I appreciate you. You heard me. You heard my heart, my concerns, my fears, my needs. You rose to the occasion. You have far exceeded my expectations of how supportive you have been during this pregnancy, birth, and 4th trimester…
Healing in Preparation for Birth: Pt. 2
I had this lingering feeling that I need to close the chapter of grieving and mourning Olive in order for me to enter into my next chapter of mother to two living babies. I asked for feedback from my classmates, my sister, and mom and after a lot of conversations and deep-pit-of-my-soul-sobbing, it was finally brought to my attention that I still harbor so much guilt.
Healing in Preparation for Birth: Pt. 1
I had this lingering feeling that I need to close the chapter of grieving and mourning Olive in order for me to enter into my next chapter of mother to two living babies. I asked for feedback from my classmates, my sister, and mom and after a lot of conversations and deep-pit-of-my-soul-sobbing, it was finally brought to my attention that I still harbor so much guilt.
“Why don’t you post pictures of your daughter?
“Why don’t you post pictures of your daughter?” What first started me on this thought process was, we live in a sick world with sick people. I do not like the idea of someone using pictures of my daughter for deviant behavior- she is so innocent and pure and the idea of images of her being used in that type of capacity makes me physically sick.
Happy 4th Birthday, Evangeline
Celebrating Evangeline’s 4 years earthside.
Maternal Mental Health
This is something that I feel we (women specifically) have been conditioned to do over the generations - stop listening to our instincts, and start sacrificing how we feel for the sake of others. I honestly feel this is a big part that plays into maternal mental health.
How this Pregnancy is Different
I had to make the conscious decision to be at peace that this pregnancy is going to be different.
I see the Light
I listened to I See the Light which is a love song between the main characters, and all I could hear was a love song to my daughter and how much I ached that I watched her first two years of life through a heavy fog of postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety.
