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Healing in Preparation for Birth: Pt. 1
I had this lingering feeling that I need to close the chapter of grieving and mourning Olive in order for me to enter into my next chapter of mother to two living babies. I asked for feedback from my classmates, my sister, and mom and after a lot of conversations and deep-pit-of-my-soul-sobbing, it was finally brought to my attention that I still harbor so much guilt.
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How this Pregnancy is Different
I had to make the conscious decision to be at peace that this pregnancy is going to be different.
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Healing to Conception
After a few months of care and month after month of heart and spirit breaking negative pregnancy tests, Zach and I decided to ask Dr. Jordan and Dr. Matt for additional information on the fertility protocol mentioned at our initial intake.
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Rainbow Baby - Pregnancy After Loss
As a birth worker, and childbirth educator and currently pregnant with our rainbow baby I am sharing this from a place of personal experience of practical application.